Late For Work (Extra Cuts)

By My Side

It took less guts,

To sell my soul,

It happened only yesterday,

I paid my price,

For “feeling fine”,

But the pulse stopped inside my veins.

Never will I lie and say I’m feeling fine,

Every single day reminds me she’s not by my side,

I am left with love,

But the future’s passed,

Addiction loves me anyway,

I play my part,

And that part is hard,

I’m growing weaker every day.

Never will I smile and say I’m still alive,

Everyone will know she’s not by my side.

If she’s happy then maybe it ain’t so bad,

I am trying to see things kindly,

The kinder I feel the more confused,

I’m thinking back to my childhood,

I am thinking all about childhood,

I’m thinking of all our childhoods.

She’s not,

She’s not by my side.

Lovesick Funeral Injection

(Heroin is to the man of sin as Christ is to execution, it’s a long painful walk trying to carry the cross, does God really need me to carry on??, the message will never be delivered, up the miles of rock and soil, she told you already there is no way back, the pain is pushing me further away from my soul, pushing me in stages, to my destined destination).

I love someone,

And going out of my head,

Medicate,

Stay numb in your unmade bed.

Lovesick Funeral Injection

The world is lost,

Watched alone through your TV set,

If you feel so ill,

Turn off and drop out of the game.

Lovesick Funeral Injection

I get up,

Get ready to face the world (without her),

I come down,

I come down so hard,

I hear the head bounce,

In a pool of piss I lay,

Once revived,

I remember who she was,

In so many pieces,

And I feel so bad,

So fucking bad,

To lose that special darkness

I have nothing left to lose.

The Right Thing To Do

Throw the feelings out now,

Best sweep them under the rug,

I have an hour,

Or maybe a minute,

I’ve got to man up,

I’ve got to bin it.

Well it’s the right thing to do,

It’s the right thing to do.

Leave the dishes in the sink,

Watch it build for a week,

Think aloud too loud,

I know she just wants me gone now.

Well it’s the right thing to do,

Yeah it’s the right thing to do.

Don’t watch the stars now,

Don’t answer calls now,

I wonder,

Does she feel anything?

Even anything at all?

Best take the trash out now,

Ain’t no room to pause,

Can’t stop your thoughts,

Unless you’re down in the bar.

Well it’s the right thing to do,

I always knew this would be easier for you,

It’s all I can do,

Yes it’s the right thing to do.

Mountain

Spinning in circles,

Coming down,

Fearing the height of,

The mountain now,

Easy to numb it back to sleep,

Harder to admit what you really feel.

Lonely is the mountain,

Without her standing on it,

Lonely is the mountain,

Beneath the cold grey sky.

Watching your colour fade to grey,

Why does it matter now anyway,

Relive her memory when you get too tired,

Can’t really say how you lost your mind,

Lonely is the mountain,

Without her standing on it,

Lonely is the mountain,

Beneath the cold,

Lonely is the mountain,

Without her standing on it,

Lonely is the mountain,

Beneath the cold grey sky.

Longing,

So loud,

Longing,

I don’t know my up from down.

Longing,

So loud,

Longing,

I don’t know my up from down.

All of the faces you think you know,

Lifeless and ugly the one you own.

Lonely is the mountain,

Without her standing on it,

Lonely is the mountain,

Beneath the cold grey sky.

Longing,

So loud,

Longing,

I don’t know my up from down.