Week 7

Gordo: I feel as if I am talking to a different person these days. A new, gentler, enlightened you because of the events of the Dark Season. Would you say that your world looks different now?

Me: Every second of the day we live changes us, as does every interaction we have with the world.

Gordo: So what does your world look like as of today?

Me: Ah. I know it is probably a darker, heavier place but paradoxically I probably see it with hope. Hard lessons learned need to be seen as a blessing. I think I am pretty much grateful to be here and to be breathing. I start from there and build from that.

Gordo: So do you consider yourself to be a reformed character?

Me: In some ways yes. I mean the way I handle things has changed.

Gordo: Give me an example.

Me: Well I mean, look....The old "me" might have been tempted to do something crazy, like discipline her new boyfriend, that’s for sure. That is a natural urge I have. It is hard to resist it but I have managed.

Gordo: Go on….

Me: I mean knowing I could literally vaporize the guy with one punch – if I smacked him in his fucking mouth at least. Knowing I am so much stronger than he is because of who I am and where I have come from.

Gordo: Have you ever met him?

Me: Regardless. I am not so modern a modern man. I have not been completely divorced from my masculinity. I do know my body and I know what it has done and still could do. Even with 3 weeks of not sleeping and eating and God only knows what else. Even with my physical strength being tested to its limit, I know what my body does. It does what it was built to do. We are all part of the animal kingdom. Thousands of years of evolution do not change certain things. Whoever we are, male, female, straight, gay, or anything else. The most important thing you can do is to know your own nature and accept it in order to improve the things you need to work on. I am the king of the barbarians.

Gordo: You’re back aren’t you?

Me: It would seem that way.